February 2012
& Honestly the thought of going back to that again scared me but it’s so easy to slip back into old habits. It’s almost like it’s calling me..
Blahhh
I really hope tomorrow is a better day than today….
I’m so scared but I love you so much…
I think the worst part about this is that, this time, it actually is really my fault…
*sigh*
I just want to be in your arms right now…
I wish I knew how to handle shit half the time and didn’t feel like I need attention 24/7.
Meh… I just feel so dumb and like a baby sometimes for how I handle things… I know I could do better.
Well, this sucks.
Honestly, I hate how unfair this is…
Sick
(Thank you Tumblr for not posting this at 1:30 when I wrote it -.-)
Honestly, I’m so sick of everything.
I’m so sick of being hurt all the time by everyone.
I’m so sick of loosing trust in everyone all the time.
I’m so sick of being disrespected all the time.
I’m so sick of wondering and being scared about everything all the fucking time.
I’m just so...
I think that the scariest thing ever is realizing that, in one form or another, going forward after today my life changes forever.
That awkward moment when you can’t stop listening to the 1 voicemail you have from your girlfriend because the only thing you want is to hear her voice.
Can’t fucking believe the way I just acted. Good thing I proved to myself and my girlfriend that I have no balls once o ever. No wonder everyone thinks im so weak.
Fucking hate myself.
